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[13 Mar 2009|06:17pm]
[ mood | sad ]

My mom was crying when we got off the phone. She said that if Mike doesn't go on a mission, that my dad won't think he joined the church for the right reasons. I can't...even fathom that. Mike is so happy. He's so happy now with the church and everything he's learning. How can she do that? How can she say that? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why is my choice never good enough? Why can't she be happy for me? My parents love and adore Abbi, but if she were a guy and I were dating that guy would they approve then? Is anybody ever good enough for their daughters? Why is everything I do wrong? Can't they love me like they did when I was young? Can't they trust me to make the right decisions? Can I bat an eyelash with their approval?

I want to have fun and not worry that they're watching. I want to love and not believe that they hate him. I want them to be happy for me! PLEASE let me be happy! Let me live my life and breath and run and hide or stay or sink or swim. I'm twenty years old this time next month. What happened to the little girl? College years are supposed to be the best times of your life. Besides my sophmore year in high school, these have been the most difficult.

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[02 Mar 2009|09:26pm]
I feel like I have no direction in my life.
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[02 Mar 2009|05:43pm]
I have do to do a show this summer. I don't know how I've managed to starve myself for this long.
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[26 Jan 2009|09:49pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

This is my new boyfriend, Mike-Isn't he a cutie?!


He came to our house for Thanksgiving. My parents thought he was the sweetest guy ever. He's been going to church with my brother for a few months. He got baptized. My dad gave a talk at his baptism. He was so impressed with his spirit.
I told my parents that I asked him out.
They flipped. All of a sudden...they think he's so wrong for me. Why? I have absolutely no clue on this Earth. He's a good Mormon boy. He's SO excited about the church! He's been reading the scriptures and and praying and he can't stop talking about how great the gospel is. Its been the only thing on his mind. He's smart. He's ambitious. He's going to be become a lawyer. He just barely turned twenty and he and his best friend already own a house. Can you...see anything wrong with him at all? Cause I sure can't. I cannot fathom why my parents feel that their world is crashing down because I am dating the most amazing boy I've ever met.

I don't remember the last time I was so confused about my parent's actions. Most of the time, I can kinda see where they're coming from. But this time...no. The only way I can deal with it is to hope to not care. But my mother won't accept that. No. She'll try to rope us into coming over to the house more. She'll be so hurt that she didn't act fake and supportive to begin with. Well, she didn't. Thats her bad, not mine. We'll never feel comfortable coming over to the house, and my relationship with my parents will never be the same, regardless of what happens. This is the most insane thing I've ever heard. This should not be that big of a deal.

She's inviting him over to dinner on Sunday. Yeah. Won't THAT be a treat. POOR GUY! He's going to be sitting with my parents, who ALL OF A SUDDEN have a HUGE distaste for him, doing everything he can to build himself up in their eyes. How is that fair to him? My GOSH! He doesn't deserve that! If anyone can't see how amazingly incredible he is then they don't deserve to be in his company. Maybe he's too nice of a guy to turn their invitation down, but when I come back home, I'm never going to want to go to my parent's house with him. How can I be comfortable around them knowing how disappointed and unhappy they are with our relationship? I can't. I don't want to see them. I don't want to see my sister. I don't want to go near that house. He's my best friend. They're not trying to give him a chance, so why should I give them one?

I hate them for not giving me the opportunity to revel in how happy I am with my new boyfriend. He's awesome! He's responsible, he's gentlemanly, he's sweeter than any guy I ever thought I deserved, he's intelligent, he's ambitious, he wants whats best for me, and he's so excited about the gospel! There's nothing else on this EARTH I could ask for! I want him, I am so happy that I somehow managed to have him, and I intend on keeping him for as long as I possibly can.

I am very disappointed in my parents. They let me down. I don't understand my father. I never will.

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[21 Jan 2009|05:59pm]
[ mood | worried ]

I hope this works.

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[20 Jan 2009|11:42pm]
I get two points of extra credit on my final exam in political science just for going to a luncheon with my professor. I vote YES to that idea.
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[20 Jan 2009|12:07pm]
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[19 Jan 2009|08:58pm]
[ mood | happy ]


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[17 Jan 2009|03:18pm]
Coming home next weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[12 Jan 2009|08:28pm]
Okay guys, I'm the next youngest Mormon from WAPA who hasn't gotten engaged. Except for Abby Jardine. Anyways. Hmmm...
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I haven't used an lj cut in forever, so I don't remember how, or I would use one on this one [11 Jan 2009|11:31pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Mikes getting baptized on the 31st!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*Raises Hand* "Dibs"

Got brass in pocket
Got bottle
I'm gonna use it
Intention I feel inventive
Gonna make you, make you, make you notice

Got motion
Restrained emotion
Been driving
Detroit leaning
No reason
Just seems so pleasing
Gonna make you, make you, make you notice

Gonna use my arms
Gonna use my legs
Gonna use my style
Gonna use my sidestep
Gonna use my fingers
Gonna use my, my, my imagination

Cause I Gonna make you see
There's nobody else here
No one like me
I'm special
So special
I gotta have some of your attention
Give it to me

Got rhythm
I can't miss a beat
Got new skank it's so reet
Got something
I'm winking at you

Gonna make you, make you, make you notice

Cause I Gonna make you see
There's nobody else here
No one like me
I'm special
So special
I gotta have some of your attention
Give it to me

I'M SO FREAKING EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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[06 Jan 2009|02:18pm]
[ mood | optimistic ]

The beginning of the new semester. and I already have a lot to do.
Last semester, I had the most stressful month leading up to finals, and week of actual finals, that I've ever had in my life. I feel a little better now that its over, but Christmas break was stress-filled as well, so I didn't really get relief from the chaos.
The snow here doesn't ban me to my house, unlike it did in Duvall. I love it. Pretty lovely...
Every time I return to BYU after being away, I am reminded of all the reasons I am in love with living here. BYU really is everything I looked forward to since I was three.

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[14 Dec 2008|08:51pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

Mkay. Survey:

What is your opinion on nose picking?

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barf [07 Dec 2008|02:27pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]


Okay, remember how I wrote about the time when one of my roommates mooched some pizza off of me? Mkay, well, at least SHE is a NICE roommate who usually shares her food with me and is a caring person.
THIS TIME, KELLIE, who is a BRAT, came into the apartment after church and took a box of pizza out of the fridge that Vanessa, Shantel and I had bought, and asked if SHANTEL and VANESSA had had their pieces yet.
First of all, I don't understand why the fact that they had had, or hadn't had, THEIR slices inferred that she could have a slice. ITS NOT HER PIZZA!
SECONDLY, after she asked that, I said, "I'm the one who bought the pizza." Because I was. I used my debit card and Shantel and Vanessa haven't paid me back yet. In response to my comment, Kellie says, "Oh," took two pieces, and went to her bedroom.

OH MY GOSH! Mkay, its not like I'm REALLY GONNA MISS those slices of pizza, but the fact remains that she's a brat. Talk about passive agressive behavior, the other day, she emptied the ENTIRE dishwasher, put away EVERYONE ELSE'S dishes in the apartment including her own, BUT LEFT MINE! There were FOUR dishes left in the dishwasher, and they were mine.

Every time I see her I ask her how her day is going. She replies, "Fine." I always offer her pieces of any candy I have. I compliment her on clothing. She never says a WORD to me. This morning, I was getting ready in the bathroom, and she came in and started fixing her hair. She didn't say a word to me, or even glance in my direction. THEN, SHANTEL comes out of her bedroom, and Kellie greets her, "Good morning." Katie came out of her bedroom, "Good morning!"

However, if she doesn't like me for some unknown reason, I guess I should be thankful that she never talks to me. Its better than someone who shoves their dislike for you in your face. Honestly, I promise you, I try to be nice to this girl. I don't know why she doesn't like me.

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[06 Dec 2008|05:51pm]
[ mood | happy ]


Okay, random, but my roommates fiance is Abbi's boyfriend's cousin. Small world? Maybe not for everyone, but it is for Mormons.


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[02 Dec 2008|11:53am]
[ mood | sick ]

I'm sick
And I had a dream last night that I asked Becca if she was doing drugs

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[23 Nov 2008|02:20pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

So, I kinda really like my friend from work, Mike, and he's investigating the LDS religion. He's been reading the Book of Mormon, and he's very much enjoying it. I actually have faith that it might happen. Mmmmmm....*Crosses fingers*

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[20 Nov 2008|01:30pm]
[ mood | nerdy ]

I am going to be home for five days, and Abbis not going to be there for three of them. I object!

(I'm not really feeling nerdy, I just liked the teddy)

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Group Project [05 Nov 2008|11:14am]
[ mood | curious ]

Everyone who remembers, could you please post a comment with details about one of Mrs. Olsen's acting warm-ups? Including vocals, if your remember any.

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[04 Nov 2008|01:29pm]
Reppin the red, white and blue today.
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